i am who i was always going to be...for better or for worse

Over the weekend I made the choice to log into my very old LiveJournal account. And by very old I mean I made it a few days before I started high school and I've been out of college for almost 10 years at this point. I genuinely don't remember what I was looking for on LiveJournal but I'm glad that I can still log into it. I do know I have it all backed up via the LJ Archive tool that someone kindly made YEARS ago but I also can't find right now so I tried to archive my journal again but it failed because of a server issue so I will be trying that again later. Everyone seems to be having sever issues right now. Definitely not a cause for concern I'm sure.

I thought it would be a fun thing to do (fun for me let me very clear) and reflect on the person I was at 14 online vs the person I am now at 36 online at least in terms of who I wanted to grow up to be and what I was interested in.

Current Music: Come On- Joise and The Pussy Cats

- Fam I literally bought the Josie and the Pussycats album ON VIYNL for the anniversary when it came out in 2021. I listened to it THIS YEAR. Lets talk about how my taste in music has only added artist to the soundtrack of my life and not how its still made of majority the same bands still. Like I'm not trying to go see Boys Like Girls this week for the anniversary tour of their debut album.

Hio (Hio is (C) to me [REDACTED]).

- LOL who did I think was gonna "steal" the fake work Hio from me? God the pure confidence in my own self importance even at 14 is a thing of beauty.

I'm crap really i am.

- Okay maybe not that much self confidence.

it 12:24 in the fucking morning. I'm nocturnal or i am for now. In a couple of weeks i'll work it off and be back to a normal sleeping pattern.

- I am technically not nocturnal these days but I am naturally crepuscular more than anything which is unfortunate because I'm forced due to capitalism to be diurnal. It's terrible.

I start school In a few weeks i think like 2 maybe 3 weeks. I'm half looking forward to that half dreading it. I start High school. Meh i'm hating the waiting but sadly i have no idea where i'm going to school anyway. I'm registered at two school [REDACTED] and [REDACTED]. I [REDACTED] is where me mum wants me to go to but I'd have to wear uniform and I'm anit uniform. LOL i've always worn uniform and i hated it so if i dont have to wear one i'm not going to.

- I honestly sort of regret not going to the school with a uniform. The short explanation I'm going to give so not to go into personal & identifiable details is the school I ended up going to has since closed its doors. It was new when I started (my class was I think the 1st or 2nd ever graduating class for reference).

Oh wow this is my first entry and I havent introduced myself. Ok so here goes.

- To this day I still forget to introduce myself when appearing in a new place. I just sort of wander in and act like I've always been there. It's funny sometimes because down the line people will be like "yeah IDK you just showed up one day and never left" like I'm some sort of stray cat that showed up in their house but its actually just an online space.

General...

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Favorite...

Food:anything chocolate

- Still true. It's now a problem because I have shitty ass eating habit.

Color(s): Silver, Black, Purple, Pink, Blue, Green

- Looks directly at the As Always Imani logo. I mean...

Animal: Cats and Fox

- Turns out theres an animal thats basically the two of these things together and its my new favorite shout out Red Pandas! They're more endangered than the Giant Panda and the OG Pandas and put some respect on my childrens name!

Anime(S): Gundam Wing, Beyblade, Naruto, Ruroni Kenshin, Case Closed, Digimon, Inu-yasha

- Nobuhiro Watsuki can die in a fire. And all his apologist can die with him.

Name: Taki

- What?? IDK what 14 year old me was doing here. This also feels like a lie because I'm 99% sure my favorite name is and has always been Clementine since I discovered it could be a person name.

Theres not else to me.

- I mean yeah except for gaining more hobbies thats a pretty good quick run down of me. I mean go look at the bio card I just made.

I'm an anime fanitc.

- I need to start watching more anime because I've very much fallen out of the habit of watching literally anything other than youtube videos in the past few years.

I love fanfictions.

- I mean yeah. It's my main form of entertainment. We don't talk about the number of hours I spend reading or the sheer quantity of fic I read.

I'm a helpless romantic.

- Also still true. A good romance story will sucker me into pretty much anything. My only bigger weakness is time travel. Which I don't think at 14 I had learned about yet?

I'm a book worm.

- Does this count if most of the books I read are fanfic?

Hum i love talking to my friends on MSN or AOL.

- I mean me and Discord are currently in a fight because of their managements shitty ass behavior but yeah still true.

I have a wondergul but at likes weird boyfriend whom i love and dont get to see often (I'm a horrible girlfriend i wonder why he puts up with me half the time).

- Turns out baby Imani hadn't learned she was Ace yet. IDK when that comes, pre college maybe? But in retrospect I wasn't that bad of a girlfriend at that age. Thankfully my then boyfriend was a wonderful boy who also had no idea what he was doing with a girlfriend. Mostly we just watched anime together, held hand, and maybe kissed some. I did however subject that boy to my OBSESSION with Hayden Christensen and for that I am sorry. He took me to see Jumper for my 18th birthday which yes means we saw each other on and off for FOUR years.

I love my family but hate them at time (dont ask).

- Yeah still true. I love them and I know they love me but jfc do I not like them most of the time.

I'm what do you what me to say... I want to move as far away from NYC and NY as i can. if its to collage or other wise.

- Hello from sunny southern California.

If its to collage i want to Major in business and minor in literature.

- Damnit 14 year old me was smarter than 18 year old me because a MBA would have been better than the Film & TV degree I ended up getting.

I want to eather teach Language arts or open a coffee shop and write books one or the other.

- See attached screenshot from literally this past Saturday, a day before I logged into my Livejournal.

But if i dont go to collage then i want to see the world.

- I made it out of the country once I think since I wrote this. I went to Australia when I was in High School. I have not been able to make the time or afford to travel like I always thought I would do when I was old enough to just go where I wanted to go.

Maybe get odd jobs here and there but as long as i'm away from here.

- Like I said, hello from sunny southern California.

Meh i hate it here.

- Actually I do miss Brooklyn but I love being away from my family more than I miss home.

ok anyway before i go all mini rant. Let see what else i can dig up on me. I get crushes on anime charters.

- First off my spelling has always been very bad and its surprising looking back how much better its gotten in comparison.

I love the bad guys and ass wipes who everyone hates.

- This is sadly still my taste in men.

I dont know why.

- Because the books you read at a formative age were a TERRIBLE influence and it didn't get better with age.

Duo of cousre theres some excptions to that rule causes there my boyfriend [REDACTED], there Max from beyblade, there Zeo from beyblade, theres Shikamaura from Naruto and there Duo from Gundam Wing.

- Yeah still true. Duo Maxwell is still number one anime crush. I can't tell if its the sass, the hair, the devil may care attitude when faced with Heero's gun, idk man IDFK.

all of which are funny guys cpect for Shikamaura he's a lazy ass wipe who acts like he's 50.

- I am still to this day oh Shikamaru's ass about being such a sloth. But I've evolved enough to ship him with Sakura and I check that ao3 tag every month praying for more fic because goddamnit I don't wanna write my own fic but I'm coming around to the fact maybe I should in fact write what I want to see in the world. Wild concept I know!

I also what to learn to speak apanese, french, russian and Gaelic.

- Lol no I didn't do any of that. But not for lack of trying. I keep trying but I just don't progress but I also refuse to give up.

Humm lets see nothing else to really tell but is i come up with more then i'll add a new entry but till them.

Later

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So yeah that's how I introduced myself when I first made my Livejournal all those years ago. It's funny the big chuck of redated personal infromation I honestly forgot I put that all out there. I think I did that because my journal was and always had to be private and I had a guest book so I had to approve people to read my post. But in hindsight that was hella dumb. I now sort of understand the the kids these days who put their whole lives in a carrd. I mean to be fair some of that information is not true because I constantly lied about certain aspects of my life because I was young and dumb but not that young and dumb. And they were also lies I told in real life to people. One day I'll tell the story about how I convinced several of my friends I was MOVING to Australia to finish out high school. I wasn't but for some reason I told them that and just like doubled the fuck down. And my parents accidently backed me up because they lacked the full context of what I was telling other people. I was a menace of a child. I'd like to think I'm less of a menace of an adult. Can not however confirm if this is true or not.